Alright it's about time I updated this sucker.
I don't really know where to start. Farrah is well and asleep in the next room, thank goodness, she wasn't sleeping well before but I haven't heard a peep from her now so fingers crossed she's having a good rest, she deserves it. I am so lucky to have her, let alone her being so happy and healthy. Over the past week I have heard of so many stories of mothers having to bury their babies and it's so heartbreaking I have to go and give Farrah a big kiss and a cuddle and thank God that she is so wonderful.
I have been trying to listen to my inner guide, or my ~ing as Gabby would say, more closely to try and hear what I am missing. A few things that have taken me by surprise have been when I thought "How am I going to teach Farrah to be an ~ing girl when I am doing such a poor job of it myself?" and almost instantly I heard "Don't worry, she will teach you." I was shocked. Then my ego kicked in with it's usual blabbing and over exaggerating I had to think of something else. My fiancee` and I are trying to buy a house, or at least we're looking to buying land and then building on it so we can give Farrah her own room, and us our own space, and my ego has been running wild with it. "How on earth can you afford that?" "You don't even have a job" etc etc but I keep hearing "Stay positive and keep moving in the direction you want..."
Oops... BRB.
Sorry, Farrah just woke up with a tummy ache so I have been her little cheer squad while she did a poop. YAY. I never thought I would be so happy about poo, oh how your life changes when you become a mum! Hopefully now she'll get some much needed uninterrupted sleep.
I have got more to say but it's now 'play time' and I must be off. This post is very unstructured and I am not really sure if it says anything at all. I'll get there. Thanks for reading!
x
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
WOW! WOW! WOW!
Well I haven't been here for a while, but I have been experiencing the best life change I will ever get. I am now a mum! :) I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl on April 11th and I tell you what she is absolutely perfect. Yes we have our bad days from time to time but one smile from her and it all melts away. She is 7 weeks today, and I will try to get into updating this on a daily basis, and write her birth story, because now more than ever I feel the need and the want to 'follow my bliss' and to constantly "show up" each day and be thankful for what I have. I want to lead by example so I can raise my beautiful daughter with no doubt in her mind that she can achieve and have and be anything her heart desires.
Thank you God for giving me the best gift I could have ever asked for, a healthy and happy baby for me to love for the rest of my life and beyond.
Thank you God for giving me the best gift I could have ever asked for, a healthy and happy baby for me to love for the rest of my life and beyond.
Monday, March 7, 2011
MONEY: DAY 24, 25, 26 & 27
If I include the previous 3 days plus today into the total for my home deposit, it really brings my total up.
March 04th: $24,000
March 05th: $25,000
March 06th: $26,000
March 07th: $27,000
+ previous home deposit total of $123,000
Total = $225,000
I have also picked out a home design I love that I want to build. I'm so excited!
SELF CARE DAY: 2, 3, 4 & 5
I haven't been using the laptop much lately cause the screen has been playing up a bit but I have definitely been working on my self care days! Day 1 was March 3rd and I promised I would drink 2L of water. Well I am glad to say I didn't get quite get to 2L but I sure came close. I felt much better for it so I have decided to aim to add that into my daily life, which it doesn't sound much but I am not much of a water drinker so to me it's a big deal.
On self care day 2, March 4th, I wanted to go for a walk so my boyfriend and I took the dog down the beach. It was beautiful weather and I felt much better after getting out, getting some exercise and some fresh air into my lungs. I need to promise myself some more self care like today more often.
Self care day 3, March 5th, and I decided to meditate for 20 minutes. In the morning I listened to Andrew Johnson's iPhone meditation for 'Success' and in the afternoon I listened to Gabrielle Bernstein's meditation on 'Seeing The World in Light', which she created for the final chapter of her 'Add More ~ing To Your Life' book.
Self care day 4, March 6th. Nothing hard about this one! I took the time and energy to self ex-foliate and wash my hair, which when you're in the final few weeks of being pregnant, can be totally exhausting. I did fell much better after doing so and very glad I pushed through the breathlessness and completed what I set out to do.
Today is self care day 5, March 7th and my goal today is to straighten my hair and paint my nails. I am also thinking about giving myself a facial and plucking my eyebrows, however if I don't get to that today then I am make it my self car promise for tomorrow. I think I will feel much prettier and self confident if I take this time to invest in myself, especially with how much my body has changed over the last 9 months.
On self care day 2, March 4th, I wanted to go for a walk so my boyfriend and I took the dog down the beach. It was beautiful weather and I felt much better after getting out, getting some exercise and some fresh air into my lungs. I need to promise myself some more self care like today more often.
Self care day 3, March 5th, and I decided to meditate for 20 minutes. In the morning I listened to Andrew Johnson's iPhone meditation for 'Success' and in the afternoon I listened to Gabrielle Bernstein's meditation on 'Seeing The World in Light', which she created for the final chapter of her 'Add More ~ing To Your Life' book.
Self care day 4, March 6th. Nothing hard about this one! I took the time and energy to self ex-foliate and wash my hair, which when you're in the final few weeks of being pregnant, can be totally exhausting. I did fell much better after doing so and very glad I pushed through the breathlessness and completed what I set out to do.
Today is self care day 5, March 7th and my goal today is to straighten my hair and paint my nails. I am also thinking about giving myself a facial and plucking my eyebrows, however if I don't get to that today then I am make it my self car promise for tomorrow. I think I will feel much prettier and self confident if I take this time to invest in myself, especially with how much my body has changed over the last 9 months.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
SELF CARE DAY: 1
I am not sure how many people have heard of Gabrielle Bernstein but she is a motivational speaker and author of the book "Add More ~ing To Your Life", amongst several other things. She has another book coming out in September (from memory) this year and and I can't wait to read it. She has a Facebook page which can be found here and her most recent challenge is called "30 Days of Self Care". There is nothing official about it, it's more about becoming aware of how you treat yourself and dedicating some time to yourself if you don't already, because you're worth it... as the Maybelline girls would say. :)
Anyway I thought this was a fantastic idea and I am going to get involved because it's about time I started becoming aware of how I act on a daily basis towards myself, and instead of just thinking "yeah I'm pretty alright", now I am going to prove it. To me!
Because of the time difference in America this was meant to start on March 1st but who cares, we are a little in front of America here in Australia, and after all, each day should be treated as a gift rather than to be seen in "blocks" of months, so I am going to start today, on March 3rd, even though I have acts of self care for the previous 2 days, I am not going to count them for a couple of reasons. 1) There weren't deliberate acts of self care that I was aware of at the time, and 2) I get a couple of extra days of self care which will bring me right up to my due date to give birth to my little girl... even though I think I will deliver early! What a better way to celebrate the last month of my pregnancy and being a single person with 0 dependents.
So what am I going to do today that is my deliberate act of self care?
DRINK 2 LITRES OF WATER TO KEEP MYSELF AND MY BABY HYDRATED
I'll let you know tomorrow how I went. :)
MONEY: DAY 21, 22 & 23
Well I haven't been keeping this as updated as daily as I previously have been for 1 main reason: all the money I am getting each day is now going into a home deposit account until I have enough to purchase some land and build a home.
Tuesday, 01st March 2011 = $21,000
Wednesday, 02nd March 2011 = $22,000
Thursday, 03rd March 2011 = $23,000
TOTAL = $66,000
If I add that to what I already had in there, it brings my grand total up to $123,000!
How does this make me feel?
Unstoppable. In a couple more days I'll be able to buy land outright, and then all I have to do is choose what house I want to build on it.
Tuesday, 01st March 2011 = $21,000
Wednesday, 02nd March 2011 = $22,000
Thursday, 03rd March 2011 = $23,000
TOTAL = $66,000
If I add that to what I already had in there, it brings my grand total up to $123,000!
How does this make me feel?
Unstoppable. In a couple more days I'll be able to buy land outright, and then all I have to do is choose what house I want to build on it.
Monday, February 28, 2011
THANK YOU DA VINCI - RIP 27.02.2011
Dear Da Vinci,
* I loved it when you picked my brother to adopt you from the school you used to call home.
* I loved it that you stayed with us, even though you were quite capable of looking after yourself.
* I loved it when you would come into the kitchen with your demanding meow for food when you were hungry, and didn't shut up until you got something.
* I loved that no matter what we gave you, you always wanted more, and usually got it.
* I loved that you kept Boof on his toes, cause he was never quite sure what mood you were in.
* I loved that you showed Pepper that not everyone appreciates her youthful playfulness.
* I loved that you had no idea what the 'BAD CAT' spray bottle meant, and that you would sit there getting soaked with a very pissed off look on your face trying to work out why we wouldn't just give you or let you do what you wanted.
* I loved that you would lie next to the fence and torment the Jack Russel next door, without a care in the world.
* I loved that when the boat came back from fishing you were always there waiting for the catch of the day.
* I loved that whenever there was chicken cooking, you weren't far away.
* I loved that you made me aware of leaving the house, having to check under the car every single time, or drive off at a snails pace just in case you were under there napping.
* I loved that you refused to move out of the way when we were trying to bring the cars in, you proved that size doesn't matter.
* I loved that you worked out our routines, so you ended up with 2 breakfasts and 2 dinners almost every day.
* I loved that you would fight for your yard even if you were challenged by your body.
* I loved that it took you half an hour just to sit down, and another half an hour to look remotely comfortable.
* I loved that you never liked to be picked up, because you knew you were completely capable of walking.
* I loved that you lived as long as you did.
Thank you for having a quick death, and even though your old frail body remains here with us, I am fortune enough to know that life is energy, and energy can't die, it only shifts sites. Where ever you are now I know you're living out your life's happiest moments, and then some. I know that when you're hungry a boat will turn up with fresh fish, or someone will bring you Red Rooster chicken. I know that there is always a lap waiting for you to cuddle into. I know that there are mice to catch, trees to mark, and someone there to pat you when you want some company. I know that there are cars parked on a street for you, that will only ever move when you want them too, and at the pace you want them too. I know that your body no longer holds you back, and you have the mobility of a kitten again. I know that my tears will dry and my heart will lighten, because I know one day we will meet again, and when I do I'll bring the chook.
Thank you for giving our family your unconditional love. My only hope is that you knew how much you were loved, and will continue to be loved. You're forever in my thoughts.
Have fun little guy, you are already truly missed.
* I loved it when you picked my brother to adopt you from the school you used to call home.
* I loved it that you stayed with us, even though you were quite capable of looking after yourself.
* I loved it when you would come into the kitchen with your demanding meow for food when you were hungry, and didn't shut up until you got something.
* I loved that no matter what we gave you, you always wanted more, and usually got it.
* I loved that you kept Boof on his toes, cause he was never quite sure what mood you were in.
* I loved that you showed Pepper that not everyone appreciates her youthful playfulness.
* I loved that you had no idea what the 'BAD CAT' spray bottle meant, and that you would sit there getting soaked with a very pissed off look on your face trying to work out why we wouldn't just give you or let you do what you wanted.
* I loved that you would lie next to the fence and torment the Jack Russel next door, without a care in the world.
* I loved that when the boat came back from fishing you were always there waiting for the catch of the day.
* I loved that whenever there was chicken cooking, you weren't far away.
* I loved that you made me aware of leaving the house, having to check under the car every single time, or drive off at a snails pace just in case you were under there napping.
* I loved that you refused to move out of the way when we were trying to bring the cars in, you proved that size doesn't matter.
* I loved that you worked out our routines, so you ended up with 2 breakfasts and 2 dinners almost every day.
* I loved that you would fight for your yard even if you were challenged by your body.
* I loved that it took you half an hour just to sit down, and another half an hour to look remotely comfortable.
* I loved that you never liked to be picked up, because you knew you were completely capable of walking.
* I loved that you lived as long as you did.
Thank you for having a quick death, and even though your old frail body remains here with us, I am fortune enough to know that life is energy, and energy can't die, it only shifts sites. Where ever you are now I know you're living out your life's happiest moments, and then some. I know that when you're hungry a boat will turn up with fresh fish, or someone will bring you Red Rooster chicken. I know that there is always a lap waiting for you to cuddle into. I know that there are mice to catch, trees to mark, and someone there to pat you when you want some company. I know that there are cars parked on a street for you, that will only ever move when you want them too, and at the pace you want them too. I know that your body no longer holds you back, and you have the mobility of a kitten again. I know that my tears will dry and my heart will lighten, because I know one day we will meet again, and when I do I'll bring the chook.
Thank you for giving our family your unconditional love. My only hope is that you knew how much you were loved, and will continue to be loved. You're forever in my thoughts.
Have fun little guy, you are already truly missed.
MONEY: DAY 19 & 20
Unfortunately yesterday I didn't get around to writing DAY 19 up on this blog due to more precedent circumstances, so I am going to combine it with today's spending blog.
DAY 19 AND 20
Sunday, 27th February 2011 and Monday, 28th February 2011
Target - $19,000 + $20,000 = $39,000
* Put the money into our home deposit account ($39,000)
How does this make me feel?
Like I am creating my future before my very eyes!
DAY 19 AND 20
Sunday, 27th February 2011 and Monday, 28th February 2011
Target - $19,000 + $20,000 = $39,000
* Put the money into our home deposit account ($39,000)
How does this make me feel?
Like I am creating my future before my very eyes!
Saturday, February 26, 2011
MONEY: DAY 18
Saturday, 26th February 2011
Target - $18,000
* Put the money in a home deposit account ($18,000)
How does this make me feel?
Accomplished.
Target - $18,000
* Put the money in a home deposit account ($18,000)
How does this make me feel?
Accomplished.
Friday, February 25, 2011
MONEY: DAY 17
Friday, 25th February 2011
Target - $17,000
* Donate to Red Cross New Zealand ($17,000)
How does this make me feel?
Privileged to be able to help those who need it most.
Target - $17,000
* Donate to Red Cross New Zealand ($17,000)
How does this make me feel?
Privileged to be able to help those who need it most.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
MONEY: DAY 16
Thursday, 24th February 2011
Target - $16,000
* Vaccinate our cat ($80)
* Buy "Your Baby Can Read' deluxe kit ($300)
* Buy Mamas and Papas Millie Rabbit and Boris Bear musical mobile ($100)
* Buy Super Soft Shopping Trolley Cover ($50)
* Buy removable star stickers for the nursery ($30)
* Buy Tiffany and Co Crown Key Pendant + Chain ($2,700)
* Get my open motorbike licence ($1,000)
* Buy a CBR250RR motorbike ($8,000)
* Donate to Red Cross New Zealand to help with their earthquake appeal ($3,740)
How does this make me feel?
Very privileged to be able to buy what I want and still have money left to donate to Christchurch.
Target - $16,000
* Vaccinate our cat ($80)
* Buy "Your Baby Can Read' deluxe kit ($300)
* Buy Mamas and Papas Millie Rabbit and Boris Bear musical mobile ($100)
* Buy Super Soft Shopping Trolley Cover ($50)
* Buy removable star stickers for the nursery ($30)
* Buy Tiffany and Co Crown Key Pendant + Chain ($2,700)
* Get my open motorbike licence ($1,000)
* Buy a CBR250RR motorbike ($8,000)
* Donate to Red Cross New Zealand to help with their earthquake appeal ($3,740)
How does this make me feel?
Very privileged to be able to buy what I want and still have money left to donate to Christchurch.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
MONEY: DAY 15
Wednesday, 23rd February 2011
Target - $15,000
* Book an Abraham Hicks cruise through Alaska 2011 for myself and my boyfriend ($3,000)
* Deluxe verandah suite with private balcony room ($7,000)
* Airfares to America ($5,000)
How does this make me feel?
Grateful that I have the money to be able to go on such a fantastic adventure with someone I love!
Target - $15,000
* Book an Abraham Hicks cruise through Alaska 2011 for myself and my boyfriend ($3,000)
* Deluxe verandah suite with private balcony room ($7,000)
* Airfares to America ($5,000)
How does this make me feel?
Grateful that I have the money to be able to go on such a fantastic adventure with someone I love!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
MONEY: DAY 14
Tuesday, 22nd February 2011
Target - $14,000
* Send Mum and Dad on a holiday, to South Africa for Mum and England for Dad ($14,000)
What have I managed to achieve in the previous week?
* Paid off my boyfriends personal loan
* Put money into a term deposit for my unborn baby girl
* Buy new laptops for myself, my boyfriend and my sister
* Give money to my brother and his girlfriend for their wedding
* Buy my boyfriend a CBR1000RR Fireblade
* Buy a new wardrobe
* Buy fitness equipment
* Start my PT course again
* Pay for my folks to go overseas to enjoy a holiday all expenses paid
How does this make me feel?
I have been able to help the people that mean the most to me, and for that I am truly thankful.
Monday, February 21, 2011
MONEY: DAY 13
Monday, 21st February 2011
Target - $13,000
I have to admit, since paying off all my debts I have had trouble trying to come up with ideas on how to spend this money. Having said that, that just goes to show how much I am living in the negative and 'reality' of the current situation and failing to focus on the end result on what it is I actually want. After all, reality of relative. Now that I am looking at the bigger picture, I doubt I am going to have trouble finding stuff to spend money on.
* Buy a completely new wardrobe so I always have something to wear... quality over quantity! ($7,000)
* Buy a treadmill, rowing machine, spin bike and weights set ($3,000)
* Start my personal training course again ($3,000)
How does this make me feel?
Buying new clothes is fantastic. I have a habit of finding something I like and then buying it in 3 different colours, I also don't tend to try things on, so I have a lot of stuff that although it does the job, doesn't quite look right on me. Having the money to buy what I LOVE instead of like, and the time freedom of not having to work to pamper myself by trying stuff on until I get it right is such a rewarding feeling when I get the results I am after. I have also started to get excited about getting my fitness back after pregnancy, and with the time I have at home I want to finish what I started over 3 years ago now by completing my Personal Trainers course. I have always had an issue on starting something and not finishing it, but I think now I am dedicated to MYSELF enough to see this through, and it's such a satisfying feeling.
Target - $13,000
I have to admit, since paying off all my debts I have had trouble trying to come up with ideas on how to spend this money. Having said that, that just goes to show how much I am living in the negative and 'reality' of the current situation and failing to focus on the end result on what it is I actually want. After all, reality of relative. Now that I am looking at the bigger picture, I doubt I am going to have trouble finding stuff to spend money on.
* Buy a completely new wardrobe so I always have something to wear... quality over quantity! ($7,000)
* Buy a treadmill, rowing machine, spin bike and weights set ($3,000)
* Start my personal training course again ($3,000)
How does this make me feel?
Buying new clothes is fantastic. I have a habit of finding something I like and then buying it in 3 different colours, I also don't tend to try things on, so I have a lot of stuff that although it does the job, doesn't quite look right on me. Having the money to buy what I LOVE instead of like, and the time freedom of not having to work to pamper myself by trying stuff on until I get it right is such a rewarding feeling when I get the results I am after. I have also started to get excited about getting my fitness back after pregnancy, and with the time I have at home I want to finish what I started over 3 years ago now by completing my Personal Trainers course. I have always had an issue on starting something and not finishing it, but I think now I am dedicated to MYSELF enough to see this through, and it's such a satisfying feeling.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
MONEY: DAY 12
Sunday, 20th February 2011
Target - $12,000
* Buy my boyfriend the 2006 Honda CBR1000RR Fireblade that is for sale to replace the one he sold before we moved house 12 months ago.
How does that make me feel?
It brings me happiness knowing I am able to give him back something he gave up in order for us to move to be closer to my family.
Target - $12,000
* Buy my boyfriend the 2006 Honda CBR1000RR Fireblade that is for sale to replace the one he sold before we moved house 12 months ago.
How does that make me feel?
It brings me happiness knowing I am able to give him back something he gave up in order for us to move to be closer to my family.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
MONEY: DAY 11
Saturday, 19th February 2011
Target - $11,000
* Buy new laptops for myself, my boyfriend and my sister ($6,000)
* Give my brother and his girlfriend money towards their wedding ($5,000)
How does this make me feel?
Great! I love that I can help, and it means they will be able to choose the photographer they want without having to worry about their budget.
Target - $11,000
* Buy new laptops for myself, my boyfriend and my sister ($6,000)
* Give my brother and his girlfriend money towards their wedding ($5,000)
How does this make me feel?
Great! I love that I can help, and it means they will be able to choose the photographer they want without having to worry about their budget.
Friday, February 18, 2011
MONEY: DAY 10
Friday, 17th February 2011
Target - $10,000
* Give money to my boyfriend so he can pay out his loan ($4,000)
* Put money into a term deposit account for my unborn baby girl ($6,000)
How dos this make me feel?
I'm on unusual ground here. I have money that I can spend and not a bill in sight that has to be paid first. I feel a little uneasy, like I am forgetting a bill, but after checking, all debts are paid. This is the day I have been waiting for. If I wasn't pregnant I would be drinking a bottle of wine to celebrate, so instead, my boyfriend and I are going to share a bag of popcorn while watching Pirates Of The Caribbean. It is going to feel wonderful waking up on Monday knowing that we work because we want to, and not because we have to. All stress is gone, a HUGE weight has been listed from my shoulders.
Target - $10,000
* Give money to my boyfriend so he can pay out his loan ($4,000)
* Put money into a term deposit account for my unborn baby girl ($6,000)
How dos this make me feel?
I'm on unusual ground here. I have money that I can spend and not a bill in sight that has to be paid first. I feel a little uneasy, like I am forgetting a bill, but after checking, all debts are paid. This is the day I have been waiting for. If I wasn't pregnant I would be drinking a bottle of wine to celebrate, so instead, my boyfriend and I are going to share a bag of popcorn while watching Pirates Of The Caribbean. It is going to feel wonderful waking up on Monday knowing that we work because we want to, and not because we have to. All stress is gone, a HUGE weight has been listed from my shoulders.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
MONEY: DAY 9
Thursday, 17th February 2011
Target - $9,000
* Give money to my boyfriend to help him pay off his loan ($9,000)
How does this make me feel?
Fantastic, only 1 more payment to go and then whatever he earns, he gets to keep. I am so fortunate to in this position.
Target - $9,000
* Give money to my boyfriend to help him pay off his loan ($9,000)
How does this make me feel?
Fantastic, only 1 more payment to go and then whatever he earns, he gets to keep. I am so fortunate to in this position.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
MONEY: DAY 8
Wednesday, 16th February 2011
Target - $8,000
* Give money to my boyfriend to help him pay off his loan ($8,000)
How does this make me feel?
Very very happy knowing I am in a position to be ale to help someone who needs it, ultimately this is all I want to be able to do. Help others.
Target - $8,000
* Give money to my boyfriend to help him pay off his loan ($8,000)
How does this make me feel?
Very very happy knowing I am in a position to be ale to help someone who needs it, ultimately this is all I want to be able to do. Help others.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
MONEY: DAY 7
Tuesday, 15th February 2011
Target - $7,000
* Make final payment on Subaru loan ($5,500)
* Book flights + spending money so my boyfriend can attend his brothers bucks weekend ($1,000)
* Pay for CEA membership ($50)
* Go and get pampered ($450)
What have I managed to achieve in the previous week?
* Paid off credit card
* Bought a fridge and freezer full of yummy food
* New tyres for the Subaru + wheel alignment + service
* Register Hilux and transfer ownership
* Paid off motorbike payment
* Paid off Hilux loan
* Donated $500 worth of toys and food to the RSPCA
* Booked flights and hire car for Gold Coast wedding
* Sent flowers to my sister
* Went on a shopping spree with my boyfriend
* Paid off Subaru loan
* Caught up on all my overdue bills
* Pampered
How does that make me feel?
In control.
Target - $7,000
* Make final payment on Subaru loan ($5,500)
* Book flights + spending money so my boyfriend can attend his brothers bucks weekend ($1,000)
* Pay for CEA membership ($50)
* Go and get pampered ($450)
What have I managed to achieve in the previous week?
* Paid off credit card
* Bought a fridge and freezer full of yummy food
* New tyres for the Subaru + wheel alignment + service
* Register Hilux and transfer ownership
* Paid off motorbike payment
* Paid off Hilux loan
* Donated $500 worth of toys and food to the RSPCA
* Booked flights and hire car for Gold Coast wedding
* Sent flowers to my sister
* Went on a shopping spree with my boyfriend
* Paid off Subaru loan
* Caught up on all my overdue bills
* Pampered
How does that make me feel?
In control.
Monday, February 14, 2011
THE POWER OF LOVE
Friday night my boyfriend wanted to take me out to dinner. At first I didn't really feel like going, but decided that I should start saying yes more than no, especially to those that I love, so we decided on Hogs Breath. We hadn't been there in a while but we got the same table we had last time we went and I ordered the fish and chips with salad, and he ordered the steak and ribs with chips and salad. It was such a wonderful meal. I couldn't eat all the fish so we thought it would be a good idea to offer the "doggy bag" to the homeless guy begging for change out the front that we walked past on our way in. Turns out it had been raining while we were eating and he had gone when we went looking for him. Our cats were VERY appreciative though!
Saturday we slept in, and in the afternoon my boyfriend said 'pack an overnight bag, we're not staying here tonight'. He had written about a week ago 'surprise' on the calendar for today, but I didn't mention it in case it wasn't going to happen, but it sure looked like it was well planned! He wouldn't tell me where we were going, and joked around saying we were getting a caravan, but we ended up at the same hotel we spent last Valentines Day at. I had no idea he had booked us in again! I was so happy and thankful to be able to spend some quality time with him.
Saturday night he took me out to dinner... again! We walked from the hotel over to the wharf, which I had completely underestimated the distance. At 33 weeks pregnant I could feel my feet swelling with every step I took, and by the time I go there I thought I was about to have the baby. Instead, I opted for a non alcoholic lemon, lime and bitters drink which went down faster than I thought it could, and decided on calamari and chips with salad for dinner, and my boyfriend got steak with calamari, chips and salad. We kept an eye on the time because the hotel car park was full, so we were taking advantage of the 2 free hours at the public car park. After dinner we quickly (as quick as my elephant legs could take me) walked back to the hotel, grabbed the car keys and went to the car park. Turns out we were $1 late, which we thought was pretty funny. We paid, got the car and headed for a drive back to our place cause I had forgotten my wedge pillow to rest my gravity defying belly on. Once we got that, (plus our bathers), I asked if we could stop by Coles and get some Maltesers, which we did. When we got back to the hotel we decided to jump in the spa next to the hotel pool, and even though it was a bit cool, it was great to be able to stretch out and arch my back without feeling pain. We got out and headed back to the room, I jumped in the shower and my boyfriend surprised me with bubble bath he had bought while he was at Coles. I decided to wait until the morning to use it. We snuggled into bed and I wanted some Maltesers so I tried opening the packet but it was stuck, so I used all my might and then the bag erupted and there was a Maltesers explosion. We both laughed while we went around the room picking up all the chocolate balls that had eluded me. When we had them all, we settled in to watching Die Hard 4 and quickly fell asleep.
Sunday morning I got to sleep in, it was fantastic. There were no cats jumping at my face to get me to let them out to play, and there were no foot steps from the people living above us. It was just my boyfriend and I. He got up to have a shower and then ran me a bath, I enjoyed it so much, I could have stayed in there a lot longer than I did! We packed our stuff, and checked out, then went over to the Coffee Club for breakfast. I had a Ham and Cheese Croissant and my boyfriend had Sausages, Eggs and Toast. It was really nice, I should have gone for 2! After breakfast / lunch we went for drive around town to see what was happening, and by the time we got home my boyfriend had decided to take my dog for a walk down the beach that afternoon and that I should come.
Sunday afternoon we just sat by the pool at home and talked to my brother and his fiancée. Around 4.30 my boyfriend said it's time to go to the beach, as I was trying to work out how to spend my last $500 on MONEY: DAY 5. Fortunately he sat in the car waiting for me with my dog, and 5 minutes later I joined them and we were off. I didn't realise how sore my feet still were from the night before, and as soon as I started to walk long distance (down the beach) my feet started to pack it in and I had to sit down. I could feel my good mood slipping so I took my focus off how sore I was feeling to being aware of my surroundings and listing everything that I loved then and there, from the weather to the clean water in my water bottle I had in front of me. 5 minutes later I felt fantastic, my feet were still swollen and sore but my mood had improved dramatically. My boyfriend came over and squatted next to me, and threw my dog the sick. I followed the stick with my eyes, as he threw it behind me and then I felt something on my leg. I turned around there was a ring box with a purple ribbon wrapped around it. I didn't know what to think, I was trying to work out what it was before I even touched it. I opened it up and there was the most beautiful ring I had seen, and it looked exactly like the engagement rings I loved. My boyfriend very quickly became my fiancée and it was magical. I showed my dog the ring and he wasn't very interested in it, his concentration laid loyal to his stick he had just fetched. With a smile on my face I got up and brushed as much sand off as I could, and we headed back to the car. When I got home I rang my parents who are overseas enjoying a much deserved holiday and told them the news, they are so happy for the both of us, and then I told my brother and then I called my sister to let her know. Once my family were all notified I called my fiancée's family and gave them the good news. My brother and his fiancée even shouted us dinner and cooked cupcakes to celebrate! Last night we cuddled and talked about our weekend before we fell asleep for the first time as an engaged couple.
To the man that will be my husband, I have loved you from the moment I met you. As soon as my eyes rested on you for the first time in 2007, the world seemed to slow down just a little, my heart skipped a beat and you took my breath away. Then you smiled at me and you melted my heart. Words can not express how much you mean to me, and how much I love you, and continue to love you more and more each day. I hope that over the next glorious decades we spend together I am able to show you and give you what you deserve; the universe; and I hope I get to make you feel as complete with me as I do with you. I promise you that I will never leave you, that I will never hurt you, and that I will never stop loving you. At the risk of sounding incredibly cliche`, you had me at hello, and I know in my heart there will never ever be a good bye. I will always be yours, through this lifetime and next. You are forever in my heart, my mind and my soul. I love you.
Saturday we slept in, and in the afternoon my boyfriend said 'pack an overnight bag, we're not staying here tonight'. He had written about a week ago 'surprise' on the calendar for today, but I didn't mention it in case it wasn't going to happen, but it sure looked like it was well planned! He wouldn't tell me where we were going, and joked around saying we were getting a caravan, but we ended up at the same hotel we spent last Valentines Day at. I had no idea he had booked us in again! I was so happy and thankful to be able to spend some quality time with him.
Saturday night he took me out to dinner... again! We walked from the hotel over to the wharf, which I had completely underestimated the distance. At 33 weeks pregnant I could feel my feet swelling with every step I took, and by the time I go there I thought I was about to have the baby. Instead, I opted for a non alcoholic lemon, lime and bitters drink which went down faster than I thought it could, and decided on calamari and chips with salad for dinner, and my boyfriend got steak with calamari, chips and salad. We kept an eye on the time because the hotel car park was full, so we were taking advantage of the 2 free hours at the public car park. After dinner we quickly (as quick as my elephant legs could take me) walked back to the hotel, grabbed the car keys and went to the car park. Turns out we were $1 late, which we thought was pretty funny. We paid, got the car and headed for a drive back to our place cause I had forgotten my wedge pillow to rest my gravity defying belly on. Once we got that, (plus our bathers), I asked if we could stop by Coles and get some Maltesers, which we did. When we got back to the hotel we decided to jump in the spa next to the hotel pool, and even though it was a bit cool, it was great to be able to stretch out and arch my back without feeling pain. We got out and headed back to the room, I jumped in the shower and my boyfriend surprised me with bubble bath he had bought while he was at Coles. I decided to wait until the morning to use it. We snuggled into bed and I wanted some Maltesers so I tried opening the packet but it was stuck, so I used all my might and then the bag erupted and there was a Maltesers explosion. We both laughed while we went around the room picking up all the chocolate balls that had eluded me. When we had them all, we settled in to watching Die Hard 4 and quickly fell asleep.
Sunday morning I got to sleep in, it was fantastic. There were no cats jumping at my face to get me to let them out to play, and there were no foot steps from the people living above us. It was just my boyfriend and I. He got up to have a shower and then ran me a bath, I enjoyed it so much, I could have stayed in there a lot longer than I did! We packed our stuff, and checked out, then went over to the Coffee Club for breakfast. I had a Ham and Cheese Croissant and my boyfriend had Sausages, Eggs and Toast. It was really nice, I should have gone for 2! After breakfast / lunch we went for drive around town to see what was happening, and by the time we got home my boyfriend had decided to take my dog for a walk down the beach that afternoon and that I should come.
Sunday afternoon we just sat by the pool at home and talked to my brother and his fiancée. Around 4.30 my boyfriend said it's time to go to the beach, as I was trying to work out how to spend my last $500 on MONEY: DAY 5. Fortunately he sat in the car waiting for me with my dog, and 5 minutes later I joined them and we were off. I didn't realise how sore my feet still were from the night before, and as soon as I started to walk long distance (down the beach) my feet started to pack it in and I had to sit down. I could feel my good mood slipping so I took my focus off how sore I was feeling to being aware of my surroundings and listing everything that I loved then and there, from the weather to the clean water in my water bottle I had in front of me. 5 minutes later I felt fantastic, my feet were still swollen and sore but my mood had improved dramatically. My boyfriend came over and squatted next to me, and threw my dog the sick. I followed the stick with my eyes, as he threw it behind me and then I felt something on my leg. I turned around there was a ring box with a purple ribbon wrapped around it. I didn't know what to think, I was trying to work out what it was before I even touched it. I opened it up and there was the most beautiful ring I had seen, and it looked exactly like the engagement rings I loved. My boyfriend very quickly became my fiancée and it was magical. I showed my dog the ring and he wasn't very interested in it, his concentration laid loyal to his stick he had just fetched. With a smile on my face I got up and brushed as much sand off as I could, and we headed back to the car. When I got home I rang my parents who are overseas enjoying a much deserved holiday and told them the news, they are so happy for the both of us, and then I told my brother and then I called my sister to let her know. Once my family were all notified I called my fiancée's family and gave them the good news. My brother and his fiancée even shouted us dinner and cooked cupcakes to celebrate! Last night we cuddled and talked about our weekend before we fell asleep for the first time as an engaged couple.
To the man that will be my husband, I have loved you from the moment I met you. As soon as my eyes rested on you for the first time in 2007, the world seemed to slow down just a little, my heart skipped a beat and you took my breath away. Then you smiled at me and you melted my heart. Words can not express how much you mean to me, and how much I love you, and continue to love you more and more each day. I hope that over the next glorious decades we spend together I am able to show you and give you what you deserve; the universe; and I hope I get to make you feel as complete with me as I do with you. I promise you that I will never leave you, that I will never hurt you, and that I will never stop loving you. At the risk of sounding incredibly cliche`, you had me at hello, and I know in my heart there will never ever be a good bye. I will always be yours, through this lifetime and next. You are forever in my heart, my mind and my soul. I love you.
MONEY: DAY 6
Monday, 14th February 2011
Target - $6,000
* Payment to Subaru loan ($5,500)
* Send a bunch of flowers to my sister ($100)
* Take my boyfriend to his favourite shop(s) and tell him he can buy what he wants ($400)
How does this make me feel?
Putting down such a payment on our Subaru loan is wonderful, and tomorrow I will be able to pay it off. I'm so excited. I really want to show my sister that she's loved and thought of on Valentines Day and I think a surprise bunch of flowers would bring a HUGE smile to her face, also, spending money on my boyfriend would make me feel happy knowing I am able to splurge on him unexpectedly, and he always buys such awesome stuff I know he'll love whatever he chooses! If there is anything there he wants that is out of my daily limit, we can put it on hold and get it tomorrow. :D
Target - $6,000
* Payment to Subaru loan ($5,500)
* Send a bunch of flowers to my sister ($100)
* Take my boyfriend to his favourite shop(s) and tell him he can buy what he wants ($400)
How does this make me feel?
Putting down such a payment on our Subaru loan is wonderful, and tomorrow I will be able to pay it off. I'm so excited. I really want to show my sister that she's loved and thought of on Valentines Day and I think a surprise bunch of flowers would bring a HUGE smile to her face, also, spending money on my boyfriend would make me feel happy knowing I am able to splurge on him unexpectedly, and he always buys such awesome stuff I know he'll love whatever he chooses! If there is anything there he wants that is out of my daily limit, we can put it on hold and get it tomorrow. :D
Sunday, February 13, 2011
MONEY: DAY 5
Sunday, 13th February 2011
Target - $5,000
* Make final payment on Hilux loan ($3,000)
* Book flights and car hire for Gold Coast Wedding ($1,500)
* Donate to the RSPCA ($500)
How does this make me feel?
Fantastic that I have paid off the Hilux loan and been able to confirm that we are going to see my boyfriend's brother get married in April! Also with the remaining money, I thought it would be good to give some love to the RSPCA and buy all the animals there treats and toys and food for Valentines Day.
Target - $5,000
* Make final payment on Hilux loan ($3,000)
* Book flights and car hire for Gold Coast Wedding ($1,500)
* Donate to the RSPCA ($500)
How does this make me feel?
Fantastic that I have paid off the Hilux loan and been able to confirm that we are going to see my boyfriend's brother get married in April! Also with the remaining money, I thought it would be good to give some love to the RSPCA and buy all the animals there treats and toys and food for Valentines Day.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
I HAD AN 'AH-HA!' MOMENT
I was reading the Abe hicks forum yesterday and someone had posted a revelation they had while out food shopping. The short version is there was an item that wouldn't scan, the check out girl had tried a few times, but then called the manager to come over and help. As soon as the manager turned up, the item scanned. The woman purchasing the food said "that's always the way isn't it", and that's when the 'ah-ha' moment happened. By calling the manager, the check out girl had released all resistance to trying to figure out how to fix the problem, and by releasing resistance, the problem was able to 'disappear'. Like when our car is playing up, we book it into a mechanic and when we take it to the mechanic the problem goes away. We release resistance and know that by calling the manager or the mechanic they will fix the problem for us, and that belief in itself is enough to turn the situation around. We get out of our own way. That was MY 'ah-ha' moment.
I was late for a loan payment this week, and the bank called me earlier in the week and asked when I was able to pay it. I told them Friday (which was yesterday), and they were completely fine with that as I am usually very good with my payments. I had forgotten to do it yesterday but this morning I decided to pay it before I got stuck into doing anything else before I forgot again. I opened up my online banking and there was less money than I thought in there, but decided that that's ok, because it's time I got out of my own way and stop offering resistance to working out 'how' I was going to fix this problem. I juggled some money around and paid the overdue payment. Then I decided to make my accounts look better. I moved 32 cents from this account, 16 cents from that account, and $27 from another account and now none of my accounts have a negative next to them, in fact, one of them even has $40 in there! LOL Just the thought of all my accounts in positive figures, even if they were +0.00 made me feel better.
Then I read my horoscope for the day. It says:
After a recent financial problem, you've decided to take the bull by the horns and do what you need to do. You're used to being in control of a situation, and small financial worries aren't going to get you down. After all, money isn't everything. On top of your ability to react to a problem, your originality and self-sacrificing attitude will help you deal with this situation.
I think it's time I stop beating the drum of not having enough money and trying to work out how I can get more money cause I don't have enough. All I am doing is offering resistance to getting more money. It's like, the universe is standing behind me saying "Here I have this money for you" and I am sitting at a table crunching numbers going "No wait I can figure this out" without even giving the universe a chance.
I wanted to write all this down in my blog, because by writing it down it makes it official, and my ego (negative thoughts) will have to surrender to my new way of being. I am FINALLY getting out of my own way, I surrender the power of "trying to find more money", because I know exactly where my money is, it's in my Vortex; and where is my Vortex? In my happiness, and in my knowing that I can do this, if I believe I can do this. And I KNOW I can do this, because I can do anything! :)
I was late for a loan payment this week, and the bank called me earlier in the week and asked when I was able to pay it. I told them Friday (which was yesterday), and they were completely fine with that as I am usually very good with my payments. I had forgotten to do it yesterday but this morning I decided to pay it before I got stuck into doing anything else before I forgot again. I opened up my online banking and there was less money than I thought in there, but decided that that's ok, because it's time I got out of my own way and stop offering resistance to working out 'how' I was going to fix this problem. I juggled some money around and paid the overdue payment. Then I decided to make my accounts look better. I moved 32 cents from this account, 16 cents from that account, and $27 from another account and now none of my accounts have a negative next to them, in fact, one of them even has $40 in there! LOL Just the thought of all my accounts in positive figures, even if they were +0.00 made me feel better.
Then I read my horoscope for the day. It says:
After a recent financial problem, you've decided to take the bull by the horns and do what you need to do. You're used to being in control of a situation, and small financial worries aren't going to get you down. After all, money isn't everything. On top of your ability to react to a problem, your originality and self-sacrificing attitude will help you deal with this situation.
I think it's time I stop beating the drum of not having enough money and trying to work out how I can get more money cause I don't have enough. All I am doing is offering resistance to getting more money. It's like, the universe is standing behind me saying "Here I have this money for you" and I am sitting at a table crunching numbers going "No wait I can figure this out" without even giving the universe a chance.
I wanted to write all this down in my blog, because by writing it down it makes it official, and my ego (negative thoughts) will have to surrender to my new way of being. I am FINALLY getting out of my own way, I surrender the power of "trying to find more money", because I know exactly where my money is, it's in my Vortex; and where is my Vortex? In my happiness, and in my knowing that I can do this, if I believe I can do this. And I KNOW I can do this, because I can do anything! :)
MONEY: DAY 4
Saturday, 12th February 2011
Target - $4,000
* Put money towards our Hilux loan ($4,000)
How does this make me feel?
Empowered, in control and confident for being able to put down such a repayment.
Target - $4,000
* Put money towards our Hilux loan ($4,000)
How does this make me feel?
Empowered, in control and confident for being able to put down such a repayment.
Friday, February 11, 2011
MONEY: DAY 3
Friday, 11th February 2011
Target - $3,000
* Pay back mum and dad for motorbike final payment ($2,800)
* Catch up on outstanding rent ($200)
How dos this make me feel?
Independent, like I am standing on my own two feet and that I can take care of my own.
Target - $3,000
* Pay back mum and dad for motorbike final payment ($2,800)
* Catch up on outstanding rent ($200)
How dos this make me feel?
Independent, like I am standing on my own two feet and that I can take care of my own.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
MOVING UP THE EGS RE: MONEY
In my last post I identified that I was at the bottom of the EGS when it came to how I felt about money. Well I am pretty sick of feeling like crap over it so I am going to write out all my current thoughts and feelings and then find a better thought and move myself up as far as I can today.
- We are going to have no money to support our baby when she is born (fear / guilt)
- We are going to have no money to pay our bills, we are already struggling (despair)
- I am going to have to go back to work instead of looking after my health and my new born baby (guilt)
- I feel bad for not working, and making my boyfriend the sole income provider, it's not fair on him (guilt / powerlessnes)
- It's not fair that we are struggling, especially when I know about the LOA (guilt)
- I wish it was as easy for me to get into my Vortex and attract money as it seems to be for everyone else (jealousy)
- I wish I could let go of the control on "how" something is going to happen, and let the universe figure it out (hatred)
- I feel like if I don't know how it's going to happen, it wont happen (hatred)
- How come they can do it and I can't? (jealousy / hatred)
- It's not fair, I wish they would share their wealth and help someone who actually needs it, like us (jealousy)
- Why can't I do this? (anger)
- What if the LOA doesn't exist and I am just wasting my time? (discouragement)
- What if I have been suckered into this way of thinking and nothing is coming my way? (discouragement)
- If the LOA likes speed, and can manifest a beautiful text message from my boyfriend right when I am thinking about how much I love him, how come it can't do this? (discouragement / blame)
- How come I am not seeing it? (discouragement)
- Why are all these LOA teachers in America, why can't they come to Australia and help me? (blame)
- Why do they have to charge so much? How can I attend a lecture on manifesting money when I can't even afford to go to the lecture? (blame)
- What if I never manage to manifest any money, and our situation doesn't change? (worry)
- What if this is as good as it gets? (worry)
- What if working hard and from 9 - 5 is the only way I am going to be able to earn money? (worry)
- What if I miss my children growing up because I have to work, and giving them a house to call their home and marrying my boyfriend all because I couldn't get this right? (worry)
- I don't want to live like that (worry / overwhelment)
- I don't want my children to live like that (worry / overwhelment)
- Everything is the same size according to the universe, it's as easy to manifest a cup of coffee as it is to manifest a million dollars... apparently (frustration / impatience)
- At least I have a roof over my head, it could be worse (boredom)
- My parents are very supporting and have said they will do what they can to help (contentment)
- I want to be able to give my children a life with only positive thoughts towards money (hopefulness)
- I want to be a good positive role model for them, and not nit-pick the negatives to their wonderful ideas, or say "we can't afford that" (hopefulness)
- Writing this is a good way to start thinking positive (optimism)
- Maybe someone will read it who will be able to offer some advice I haven't even thought of? (positive expectation)
- At least I know about the LOA, and I can work on getting into the Vortex more often (positive expectation)
- I can use the Abraham Hicks forum and my Meditation for Dummies book to help me instead of just having them "there" (positive expectation)
- I know I will get it right, and I am only 30 days or less away from feeling the feelings at the top of the Emotional Guidance Scale regarding money (positive expectation)
- When I get there, and feel those feelings, everything I desire will follow (positive expectation)
- I will be able to stay to home with my baby (passion)
- My boyfriend wont have to worry about how much he is earning (passion)
- Our bills will take care of themselves (passion)
- I can do this if I believe I can do this (knowledge / empowerment)
I have to admit I do feel better from when I started typing this, but I feel like I should post it in the AH forum to get some feedback. Letting go of the "how" is going to be the biggest challenge I have, as I have always had to know "how" when it came to the big things in life. Hopefully someone can offer me some advice to get out of the way of the universe. I might grab my meditation book and keep reading, and learn how to meditate so I can learn how to control my negative thoughts and quieten down my mind.
- We are going to have no money to support our baby when she is born (fear / guilt)
- We are going to have no money to pay our bills, we are already struggling (despair)
- I am going to have to go back to work instead of looking after my health and my new born baby (guilt)
- I feel bad for not working, and making my boyfriend the sole income provider, it's not fair on him (guilt / powerlessnes)
- It's not fair that we are struggling, especially when I know about the LOA (guilt)
- I wish it was as easy for me to get into my Vortex and attract money as it seems to be for everyone else (jealousy)
- I wish I could let go of the control on "how" something is going to happen, and let the universe figure it out (hatred)
- I feel like if I don't know how it's going to happen, it wont happen (hatred)
- How come they can do it and I can't? (jealousy / hatred)
- It's not fair, I wish they would share their wealth and help someone who actually needs it, like us (jealousy)
- Why can't I do this? (anger)
- What if the LOA doesn't exist and I am just wasting my time? (discouragement)
- What if I have been suckered into this way of thinking and nothing is coming my way? (discouragement)
- If the LOA likes speed, and can manifest a beautiful text message from my boyfriend right when I am thinking about how much I love him, how come it can't do this? (discouragement / blame)
- How come I am not seeing it? (discouragement)
- Why are all these LOA teachers in America, why can't they come to Australia and help me? (blame)
- Why do they have to charge so much? How can I attend a lecture on manifesting money when I can't even afford to go to the lecture? (blame)
- What if I never manage to manifest any money, and our situation doesn't change? (worry)
- What if this is as good as it gets? (worry)
- What if working hard and from 9 - 5 is the only way I am going to be able to earn money? (worry)
- What if I miss my children growing up because I have to work, and giving them a house to call their home and marrying my boyfriend all because I couldn't get this right? (worry)
- I don't want to live like that (worry / overwhelment)
- I don't want my children to live like that (worry / overwhelment)
- Everything is the same size according to the universe, it's as easy to manifest a cup of coffee as it is to manifest a million dollars... apparently (frustration / impatience)
- At least I have a roof over my head, it could be worse (boredom)
- My parents are very supporting and have said they will do what they can to help (contentment)
- I want to be able to give my children a life with only positive thoughts towards money (hopefulness)
- I want to be a good positive role model for them, and not nit-pick the negatives to their wonderful ideas, or say "we can't afford that" (hopefulness)
- Writing this is a good way to start thinking positive (optimism)
- Maybe someone will read it who will be able to offer some advice I haven't even thought of? (positive expectation)
- At least I know about the LOA, and I can work on getting into the Vortex more often (positive expectation)
- I can use the Abraham Hicks forum and my Meditation for Dummies book to help me instead of just having them "there" (positive expectation)
- I know I will get it right, and I am only 30 days or less away from feeling the feelings at the top of the Emotional Guidance Scale regarding money (positive expectation)
- When I get there, and feel those feelings, everything I desire will follow (positive expectation)
- I will be able to stay to home with my baby (passion)
- My boyfriend wont have to worry about how much he is earning (passion)
- Our bills will take care of themselves (passion)
- I can do this if I believe I can do this (knowledge / empowerment)
I have to admit I do feel better from when I started typing this, but I feel like I should post it in the AH forum to get some feedback. Letting go of the "how" is going to be the biggest challenge I have, as I have always had to know "how" when it came to the big things in life. Hopefully someone can offer me some advice to get out of the way of the universe. I might grab my meditation book and keep reading, and learn how to meditate so I can learn how to control my negative thoughts and quieten down my mind.
HOW DO I FEEL ABOUT MONEY?
I know I don't feel good about money. Yesterday I was having a fantastic day. I started this blog, my brother took our sheets off the line for me, folded them and put them in our room, then he said he was thinking about buying the book "Baby Love" for my boyfriend and I (a book I had been looking at buying myself). It was our 3 year anniversary yesterday and I posted on Facebook a status update about our first kiss, and thanking him for taking a chance at love with me. Just thinking about that first moment we shared made me tear up in a moment of complete love, then my boyfriend sent me the most beautiful SMS saying he loves me more than the first day we met.
I spent most of my day online, writing out the texts regarding the emotional guidance scale, being reminded that everything in my life is a vibrational indicator to where I am in the Vortex. I felt myself getting more and more in the Vortex the more I continued to re-read the text, and write it out. I thought I would do some washing, and clean up the kitchen and lounge room for when he got home, as he has been working hard all day.
When he got home he told me that his boss is interested in his radios that he has for sale, and hopefully he'll take all 3 of them for a couple hundred each + installation cash. My boyfriend was wrapped and instantly I felt myself thrown out of the Vortex. A couple hundred? I thought they were worth around $1,000 each. Apparently I had mistaken their value for something else. I couldn't quite understand what was going on but I felt like I had been hit with a brick right in the chest. I was counting on using the couple of thousand my boyfriend was going to sell his radios for, on helping pay off our Hilux loan. I was going to sell the Starlet for a couple of thousand to meet him half way and get rid of the loan completely. It was all planned in my head. That way I thought we wouldn't have to worry about selling the Subaru for top dollar to pay off both the Subaru loan and the Hilux loan, we would only have to worry about the Subaru loan. Everything in my head was coming together to work out in time for the birth of our first child, due in 50 days. But only a couple of hundred each? How on Earth is that going to help? That doesn't fit into my plan.
From that point on in the afternoon my mood was sullen, I was quiet, I was almost depressed, but quick to frustration and irritation. I knew right then and there I had to get back into the Vortex, but my mood was so "blah" I didn't know where to pin point my state on the EGS, and quite frankly, I couldn't be bothered. I went to bed feeling that way, disappointed that I let a simple moment ruin my day.
This morning I woke up in pretty much the same mood, and thought I need to do something about this state of mind, because I WANT to feel better about money, and I WANT to be able to surrender control of the "how" to the universe. I know that by trying to figure out "how" something is going to manifest all I am doing is offering resistance to it, and the last thing I need is more resistance to money, or should I say a feeling of security?
I didn't know where to start, because I was still feeling "blah" I thought I would write an appreciation list of everything in my life I should give thanks for, but I didn't get very far with it. Then I jumped on the Abraham Hicks forum and started to read a thread called "How DO you get into the vortex ANYWAYS?" I only read a couple of replies and then I remembered on another forum I'm a member on, a user had posted in a thread called "things you want to do before you die" a list of 101 things that he wanted to do, using LOA to get them. This forum isn't about LOA, which is why it stood out to me. I found his post and decided that I would write my own Bucket List of things I wanted to do before I died. (Or croaked, depending on who you speak to).
I got started, at first I didn't feel much of a change in my mood but the more I got involved with it, the more I could feel my mood shift. I have only done 50 things so far, but my mood shifted far enough to pull me out of a state of despair to be able to focus my energy on moving up the EGS regarding money, since my lack of awareness is what got me here in the first place.
So... how do I feel about money; exactly?
Joy / Knowledge / Empowerment / Freedom / Love / Appreciation
Passion
Enthusiasm / Eagerness / Happiness
Positive Expectation / Belief
Optimism
Hopefulness
Contentment
Boredom
Pessimism
Frustration / Impatience / Irritation
"Overwhelment"
Disappointment
Doubt
Worry
Blame
Discouragement
Anger
Revenge
Hatred / Rage
Jealousy
Insecurity / Guilt / Unworthiness
Fear / Grief / Depression / Despair / Powerlessness
I guess I would have to say right down the bottom. Fear / Grief / Depression / Despair and Powerlessness. The good news with that is I can't get any lower, and the only way from here is up! So going by what I typed out yesterday, I need to find a better thought on what I am feeling right now, as I am unable to feel anything far from what I am feeling right now. Meaning, I can't go from despair and depression to positive expectation and belief, it's too far to jump... but that doesn't mean I am going to take forever to get there, because once I get started I could always move up the EGS quickly.
Now that I have taken the time to figure out where I am and how I am feeling, finally, I can concentrate on moving up the EGS, rather than dwell about my woes in a feeling of "blah". It's all good from here, and for that I am thankful.
MONEY: DAY 2
Thursday, 10th February 2011
Target - $2,000
* Buy 4 x new tyres for the Subaru + wheel alignment ($600)
* Book her in for a service and brake pad change ($400)
* Register the Hilux and pay for stamp duty / transfer of ownership ($650)
* Pay my overdue loan payment for the Hilux loan ($170)
* Put the remainder in our joint bills account to bring the balance back up to +0.00
How does this make me feel?
Relieved, like I am finally getting organised and ahead, and like I don't have to worry about people ringing me and asking for money anymore.
Target - $2,000
* Buy 4 x new tyres for the Subaru + wheel alignment ($600)
* Book her in for a service and brake pad change ($400)
* Register the Hilux and pay for stamp duty / transfer of ownership ($650)
* Pay my overdue loan payment for the Hilux loan ($170)
* Put the remainder in our joint bills account to bring the balance back up to +0.00
How does this make me feel?
Relieved, like I am finally getting organised and ahead, and like I don't have to worry about people ringing me and asking for money anymore.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
MONEY: DAY 1
Wednesday, 9th February 2011
Target - $1,000
* Pay off the credit card ($750)
* Go and buy enough yummy food and drinks to fill up the fridge and freezer ($250)
How does this make me feel?
Excited, hopeful and abundant. Like I can cook a great meal for my man and not worry about having enough food for tomorrow. I think I might cook Bass fish with steamed vegetables and chips. YUM!
Target - $1,000
* Pay off the credit card ($750)
* Go and buy enough yummy food and drinks to fill up the fridge and freezer ($250)
How does this make me feel?
Excited, hopeful and abundant. Like I can cook a great meal for my man and not worry about having enough food for tomorrow. I think I might cook Bass fish with steamed vegetables and chips. YUM!
MANIFESTING MONEY - GAME
I am unsure on where this game originally comes from, but it is my understanding that in participating in it each day, you begin to change your thought processes around the idea of money, from that of lack there of (insecurity) to that of abundance (security).
What happens is each day you get given $1,000 to spend on what you like, however, it can not be saved into an account for a rainy day, it must be spent, every single last dollar. Every day that you participate, your daily value increases. For example; on day one you have $1,000 to spend, on day two you have $2,000 to spend, on day ten you have $10,000 to spend, and so on and so forth.
The idea is to keep this up for 30 days, as that is how long it takes to change habits, however I encourage you to keep this going for as long as you like, and to challenge your imagination. Everyone that reads this post is more than welcome to join in the fun. Please see my post 'MONEY: DAY 1' to get started, it's never too late to get involved.
What happens is each day you get given $1,000 to spend on what you like, however, it can not be saved into an account for a rainy day, it must be spent, every single last dollar. Every day that you participate, your daily value increases. For example; on day one you have $1,000 to spend, on day two you have $2,000 to spend, on day ten you have $10,000 to spend, and so on and so forth.
The idea is to keep this up for 30 days, as that is how long it takes to change habits, however I encourage you to keep this going for as long as you like, and to challenge your imagination. Everyone that reads this post is more than welcome to join in the fun. Please see my post 'MONEY: DAY 1' to get started, it's never too late to get involved.
HOW TO USE THE EGS
The following is the basic list of emotions, beginning with those that hold the least resistance, all the way own to those that hold the greatest resistance. Whenever emotions have very similar vibrations, we have indicated them on the same line. These emotions rang from the extremes of strongly allowing of your source energy to strongly disallowing of your source energy, and they are indicated by the words of Empowerment or Joy, on one end of the scale, all the way down to Depression and Powerlessness on the other end.
Joy / Knowledge / Empowerment / Freedom / Love / Appreciation
The words, or titles, that have been given to these emotions are not absolutely accurate because different people feel different about emotions even when they are using similar words, however, the universe is not responding to your words, it is responding to your vibrational offering that is accurately and always accompanied by your emotions. So, finding the perfect word to describe the way you feel is not essential to this process, but feeling the emotion in important, and finding ways to improve your feeling is even more important. In other words, this game is strictly about discovering thoughts that give you feelings of relief.
Passion
Enthusiasm / Eagerness / Happiness
Positive Expectation / Belief
Optimism
Hopefulness
Contentment
Boredom
Pessimism
Frustration / Impatience / Irritation
"Overwhelment"
Disappointment
Doubt
Worry
Blame
Discouragement
Anger
Revenge
Hatred / Rage
Jealousy
Insecurity / Guilt / Unworthiness
Fear / Grief / Depression / Despair / Powerlessness
The words, or titles, that have been given to these emotions are not absolutely accurate because different people feel different about emotions even when they are using similar words, however, the universe is not responding to your words, it is responding to your vibrational offering that is accurately and always accompanied by your emotions. So, finding the perfect word to describe the way you feel is not essential to this process, but feeling the emotion in important, and finding ways to improve your feeling is even more important. In other words, this game is strictly about discovering thoughts that give you feelings of relief.
Here is the way we would apply this powerful process:
When you are aware that you are feeling some rather strong negative emotion, try to identify what the emotion is. Consciously think about whatever is bothering you until you can pin point the emotions that you are feeling. Considering the two extreme ends of this emotional scale, you could ask yourself: Do I feel powerful? or do I feel powerless? While you may not actually be feeling either one of these emotions precisely, you will be able to tell which way your emotional state of being is leaning right now.
So in this example, if your answer is powerless, then shorten the range that you are considering and ask yourself: Does it feel like powerlessness or frustration? Still more like powerlessness, then shorten the range still further. Does this feel like powerlessness or worry? As you continue (there is no right or wrong approach to this), eventually you will be able to state with accuracy what you are really feeling about the situation you are addressing.
Once you have found your place on the emotional scale, your work is to try to find thoughts that give you a slight feeling of relief from the emotion you are feeling. a process of talking out loud, or writing down your thoughts will give you the best reading of the way you are feeling. As you make statements with the deliberate intention of inducing an emotion that gives you a slight feeling of relief, you will begin to release resistance, and you will be able to move up the vibrational scale to a place of feeling much better.
Remember, an improved feeling means a releasing of resistance, and a releasing of resistance means a greater state of allowing what you really want.
So, using the Emotional Guidance Scale, and beginning with where you are, look at the emotion that is just about where you believe you are, and try to fashion some words that lead you more into a slightly less resistant emotional state of being.
For example: A woman found herself in a state of tremendous resistance and pain because of the death of her father. Even though he had been seriously ill, and his death was expected, when it happened she found herself in the deepest depression. She felt powerless and grief stricken in response to her focus upon the uncontrollable death of her father. During the days before her father's death, this woman had barely left his side, but he slipped into unconsciousness during one of the rare times when she was not with him, and he did not awaken again before he died.
As she thought about not being there to have just one last conversation, tremendous thoughts of guilt washed through her, and while she did not consciously recgonise the slight improvement in the way the guilt felt, it was a very important vibrational transition for her. Then her thoughts to turned to powerful anger. She focus on the woman who had been with her father when he had slipped into unconsciousness, and she felt rage that this woman her father such a strong dose of medication (for the purpose of making him more comfortable), and then she blamed the woman for having deprived her of her last conversation with her father.
She did not realise it at the time, but the feelings of guilt, rage, anger and blame, were each definite improvements of her grief stricken vibrational sense of resistance. She did feel better in her blame, much better in fact, at least she could breath, and she was now able to sleep. Of course, it is always better when you achieve the improved state of emotion deliberately, but even in this case, when the improved emotions were discovered naturally and unconsciously, each improvement now gives you access to something even more improved.
Once you find the relief that anger and blame can offer from those suffocating emotions of powerlessness and grief, you can move even more quickly up the vibrational scale. And while it may take a day or two to move up even one vibrational level (from grief to guilt to revenge to anger to blame), you can reclaim your connection to your source and to your feeling of empowerment in a much shorter time than almost anyone realises.
Here is an example of conscious statements that this woman could have offered to improve the way she felt"
- I did everything I could think of doing to help my father, but if wasn't enough (grief)
- I miss him so much, I can't stand him being gone (grief)
- How will I be able to soothe my mother? (despair)
- Every morning when I awaken, the fist awareness that I have is that Daddy is gone (grief)
- I shouldn't have gone home to shower (guilt)
- I should have stayed right there so I could have told him good bye (guilt)
- I should have realised how close he was to going (guilt)
- I was thee day and night, day and night, and I still didn't get to say good bye (rage)
- The woman who was with him knew very well what was happening (rage)
- How would she like it if the shoe was on the other foot and I put her father into a coma (revenge)
- She has seen many people die, and she should have warned me that it was close (anger)
- I think she knew and didn't want me to be there (anger)
- She gave him more medication than he needed just to make it easier for her (blame)
- I wish I could have said good bye (disappointment)
- There are too many details to attend to, and I don't really feel like doing anything (overwhelment)
- I've been neglecting so many things in my life; I need to regroup and get oganised (overwhelment)
- The health care professionals are insensitive to the families of sick and dying people (frustration)
- They're more concerned about picking up the oxygen tanks than about how I feel (irritation)
- It will be good to spend some more time with my own family (hopefulness)
- It will feel good to get back into the swing of things at work (positive expectation)
- I know that in time I will get to a better feeling (positive expectation)
- I don't know if I will ever feel the way I felt before, but I know I will feel better in time (positive expectation)
- I am so looking forward to smiling, and meaning it, and laughing and really feeling it (positive expectation)
- I appreciate my husband so much, he's been helpful in so many ways (appreciation)
- I do appreciate all of those people who have cared for my father and my mother (appreciation)
- I appreciate my sisters, we all love our parents and we love each other (appreciation / love)
- All things considered, we have lived and are living really wonderful lives (appreciation / love)
- Death is a part of life (knowledge)
- Since we are really eternal beings, there really is no such thing as 'death' (knowledge)
- Daddy is not gone, because there is no such thing as 'death' (knowledge)
- He's in a place where sadness doesn't exist (knowledge)
- That is truly a wonderful place to be (joy)
- I love knowing that he's in a place of utter joy and understanding (joy)
- I adore this glorious earth experience (joy)
- I love knowing how all this fits together (joy)
- I loved having this wonderful man as my father (joy)
- This has all been good (joy)
- This is all good (joy)
Remember, you do not have access to emotions that are far away from where you are currently vibrating. Although you might spend an entire day beating the drum of the emotion of where you are, on the next day, try to establish a different set point even if it is only a slight improvement. If the negative emotion you are feeling is only slight, you will quickly move up the emotional scale. If the negative emotion you are feeling has begun only recently, you will quickly move up the emotional scale.
If you are experiencing something extremely serous, or if it is something that you have been living with for many years, it is conceivable that you could spend 22 days moving up this emotional scale, each day deliberately choosing the improved emotion just above the one you are currently feeling. 22 days from Powerlessness to Empowerment is not a long time at all when you compare it to people you know who have been in a state of grief, insecurity, or powerlessness for many years.
Now that you understand that your goal is to reach for a better feeling emotion, it is our expectation that this process will free you troubling negative emotions that you have been experiencing for years, and as you gently and gradually release the resistance you have unknowingly gathered, you will begin to experience improvements in your life experiences, in all troubling areas in your life.
From the book: ASK AND IT IS GIVEN - ESTHER AND JERRY HICKS
From the book: ASK AND IT IS GIVEN - ESTHER AND JERRY HICKS
THE EGS EXPLAINED
- When you feel bad or are having a difficult time feeling better
- When something has happened to you or someone close to you that has knocked you back on your heels (Examples: someone died, your lover left you, your dog got run over, etc)
- When it has been necessary for you to deal with a crisis
- When you have been diagnosed with a frightening illness
- When someone you love has been diagnosed with a frightening illness
- When your child, or someone very close to you, is experiencing a trauma or crisis
This moving up the emotional scale process will be the most value to you when when your emotional set point is ranging between Anger and Fear / Grief / Depression / Despair / Powerlessness
So the contrast of your life experience has helped your identify your preferences and desires, and whether you speak them out loud or not source has heard each of your preferences and desires - no matter how large or small they may seem - and has answered them. The manager, called Law Of Attraction, has lined up circumstances, events, other people, and all manner of things to assist in the fulfillment of your desires. In other words, you have asked, and it is given, but you must let it in.
Remember, there is no 'Non Physical Source of darkness, sickness, confusion, or evil. There is only the stream of well being, and it is flowing towards you at all times, and unless you are offering resistance of some kind, you are the receiver of it, and your emotions help you understand to what extend you are allowing or resisting in the stream. In other words, the better you feel, the less you are resisting. The worse you feel, the more you are resisting.
The process of moving up the emotional scale will assist you, no matter where you stand, no matter what you are creating, and no matter how you feel; to lower your state of resistance and therefore improve your state of allowing, and every feeling of relief - will be an indication of your release of resistance.
We want to help you understand that deliberate creation is really about deliberately achieving an emotional state. For example:
- When you do not have enough money, you want more, but when you understand that distance you will be travelling is not the distance between not enough money to enough money, but instead the distance between a feeling of insecurity to a feeling of security. Once you practice the thought that makes you consistently feel more secure, the more money must follow.
- When you are sick, you want to be well, but the distance you are travelling is not from sickness to wellness, but from fear to confidence. Once you practice the thoughts that make you fell more confident, the physical improvements must follow.
- When you have no mate and want to find one, the distance you are really travelling is from the feeling of being lonely to the feeling of excitement or satisfaction. Once you practice the thoughts that make you feel excitement or anticipation, the perfect mate must follow.
You may say, "I want a new car", but what the universe is hearing is:
* I am not happy with my current car
* I feel embarrassed by my current car
* I feel disappointed that I don't have a better car
* I feel jealous that my neighbour has a much better car
* I feel angry that I can not afford a better car
You may say, "I want to be well", but hat the universe is hearing is:
* I am worried about my body
* I am disappointed with myself
* I am worried about my health
* I am afraid that I will have a bad experience like my mother had
* I am angry that I didn't take better care of myself
You may say, "I want to find another job", but what the universe is hearing is:
* I am angry because my employer doesn't see my value
* I feel bored
* I feel unhappy with my current salary
* I'm frustrated that I can't make them understand
* I'm overwhelmed, with too much to do
There is nothing that your or anyone else has ever wanted that exists for any other reason that you think you will feel better in the achieving of it. Once you consciously identify your current state of emotion, it becomes easier for you to understand whether you are choosing thoughts that move you closer to your desired destination, or further away from your desired destination. If you will make the improved feeling or emotion be your real destination, than anything and everything you want will quickly follow.
From the book: ASK AND IT IS GIVEN - ESTHER AND JERRY HICKS
- When something has happened to you or someone close to you that has knocked you back on your heels (Examples: someone died, your lover left you, your dog got run over, etc)
- When it has been necessary for you to deal with a crisis
- When you have been diagnosed with a frightening illness
- When someone you love has been diagnosed with a frightening illness
- When your child, or someone very close to you, is experiencing a trauma or crisis
This moving up the emotional scale process will be the most value to you when when your emotional set point is ranging between Anger and Fear / Grief / Depression / Despair / Powerlessness
So the contrast of your life experience has helped your identify your preferences and desires, and whether you speak them out loud or not source has heard each of your preferences and desires - no matter how large or small they may seem - and has answered them. The manager, called Law Of Attraction, has lined up circumstances, events, other people, and all manner of things to assist in the fulfillment of your desires. In other words, you have asked, and it is given, but you must let it in.
Remember, there is no 'Non Physical Source of darkness, sickness, confusion, or evil. There is only the stream of well being, and it is flowing towards you at all times, and unless you are offering resistance of some kind, you are the receiver of it, and your emotions help you understand to what extend you are allowing or resisting in the stream. In other words, the better you feel, the less you are resisting. The worse you feel, the more you are resisting.
The process of moving up the emotional scale will assist you, no matter where you stand, no matter what you are creating, and no matter how you feel; to lower your state of resistance and therefore improve your state of allowing, and every feeling of relief - will be an indication of your release of resistance.
We want to help you understand that deliberate creation is really about deliberately achieving an emotional state. For example:
- When you do not have enough money, you want more, but when you understand that distance you will be travelling is not the distance between not enough money to enough money, but instead the distance between a feeling of insecurity to a feeling of security. Once you practice the thought that makes you consistently feel more secure, the more money must follow.
- When you are sick, you want to be well, but the distance you are travelling is not from sickness to wellness, but from fear to confidence. Once you practice the thoughts that make you fell more confident, the physical improvements must follow.
- When you have no mate and want to find one, the distance you are really travelling is from the feeling of being lonely to the feeling of excitement or satisfaction. Once you practice the thoughts that make you feel excitement or anticipation, the perfect mate must follow.
You may say, "I want a new car", but what the universe is hearing is:
* I am not happy with my current car
* I feel embarrassed by my current car
* I feel disappointed that I don't have a better car
* I feel jealous that my neighbour has a much better car
* I feel angry that I can not afford a better car
You may say, "I want to be well", but hat the universe is hearing is:
* I am worried about my body
* I am disappointed with myself
* I am worried about my health
* I am afraid that I will have a bad experience like my mother had
* I am angry that I didn't take better care of myself
You may say, "I want to find another job", but what the universe is hearing is:
* I am angry because my employer doesn't see my value
* I feel bored
* I feel unhappy with my current salary
* I'm frustrated that I can't make them understand
* I'm overwhelmed, with too much to do
There is nothing that your or anyone else has ever wanted that exists for any other reason that you think you will feel better in the achieving of it. Once you consciously identify your current state of emotion, it becomes easier for you to understand whether you are choosing thoughts that move you closer to your desired destination, or further away from your desired destination. If you will make the improved feeling or emotion be your real destination, than anything and everything you want will quickly follow.
From the book: ASK AND IT IS GIVEN - ESTHER AND JERRY HICKS
THE EMOTIONAL GUIDANCE SCALE (EGS)
Joy / Knowledge / Empowerment / Freedom / Love / Appreciation
Passion
Enthusiasm / Eagerness / Happiness
Positive Expectation / Belief
Optimism
Hopefulness
Contentment
Boredom
Pessimism
Frustration / Impatience / Irritation
"Overwhelment"
Disappointment
Doubt
Worry
Blame
Discouragement
Anger
Revenge
Hatred / Rage
Jealousy
Insecurity / Guilt / Unworthiness
Fear / Grief / Depression / Despair / Powerlessness
From the book: ASK AND IT IS GIVEN - ESTHER AND GERRY HICKS
Passion
Enthusiasm / Eagerness / Happiness
Positive Expectation / Belief
Optimism
Hopefulness
Contentment
Boredom
Pessimism
Frustration / Impatience / Irritation
"Overwhelment"
Disappointment
Doubt
Worry
Blame
Discouragement
Anger
Revenge
Hatred / Rage
Jealousy
Insecurity / Guilt / Unworthiness
Fear / Grief / Depression / Despair / Powerlessness
From the book: ASK AND IT IS GIVEN - ESTHER AND GERRY HICKS
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