RAMBLINGS

Alright it's about time I updated this sucker.

I don't really know where to start. Farrah is well and asleep in the next room, thank goodness, she wasn't sleeping well before but I haven't heard a peep from her now so fingers crossed she's having a good rest, she deserves it. I am so lucky to have her, let alone her being so happy and healthy. Over the past week I have heard of so many stories of mothers having to bury their babies and it's so heartbreaking I have to go and give Farrah a big kiss and a cuddle and thank God that she is so wonderful.

I have been trying to listen to my inner guide, or my ~ing as Gabby would say, more closely to try and hear what I am missing. A few things that have taken me by surprise have been when I thought "How am I going to teach Farrah to be an ~ing girl when I am doing such a poor job of it myself?" and almost instantly I heard "Don't worry, she will teach you." I was shocked. Then my ego kicked in with it's usual blabbing and over exaggerating I had to think of something else. My fiancee` and I are trying to buy a house, or at least we're looking to buying land and then building on it so we can give Farrah her own room, and us our own space, and my ego has been running wild with it. "How on earth can you afford that?" "You don't even have a job" etc etc but I  keep hearing "Stay positive and keep moving in the direction you want..."

Oops... BRB.

Sorry, Farrah just woke up with a tummy ache so I have been her little cheer squad while she did a poop. YAY. I never thought I would be so happy about poo, oh how your life changes when you become a mum! Hopefully now she'll get some much needed uninterrupted sleep.

I have got more to say but it's now 'play time' and I must be off. This post is very unstructured and I am not really sure if it says anything at all. I'll get there. Thanks for reading!

x

WOW! WOW! WOW!

Well I haven't been here for a while, but I have been experiencing the best life change I will ever get. I am now a mum! :) I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl on April 11th and I tell you what she is absolutely perfect. Yes we have our bad days from time to time but one smile from her and it all melts away. She is 7 weeks today, and I will try to get into updating this on a daily basis, and write her birth story, because now more than ever I feel the need and the want to 'follow my bliss' and to constantly "show up" each day and be thankful for what I have. I want to lead by example so I can raise my beautiful daughter with no doubt in her mind that she can achieve and have and be anything her heart desires.

Thank you God for giving me the best gift I could have ever asked for, a healthy and happy baby for me to love for the rest of my life and beyond.

MONEY: DAY 24, 25, 26 & 27

If I include the previous 3 days plus today into the total for my home deposit, it really brings my total up.

March 04th: $24,000

March 05th: $25,000

March 06th: $26,000

March 07th: $27,000

+ previous home deposit total of $123,000

Total = $225,000

I have also picked out a home design I love that I want to build. I'm so excited!

SELF CARE DAY: 2, 3, 4 & 5

I haven't been using the laptop much lately cause the screen has been playing up a bit but I have definitely been working on my self care days! Day 1 was March 3rd and I promised I would drink 2L of water. Well I am glad to say I didn't get quite get to 2L but I sure came close. I felt much better for it so I have decided to aim to add that into my daily life, which it doesn't sound much but I am not much of a water drinker so to me it's a big deal.

On self care day 2, March 4th, I wanted to go for a walk so my boyfriend and I took the dog down the beach. It was beautiful weather and I felt much better after getting out, getting some exercise and some fresh air into my lungs. I need to promise myself some more self care like today more often.

Self care day 3, March 5th, and I decided to meditate for 20 minutes. In the morning I listened to Andrew Johnson's iPhone meditation for 'Success' and in the afternoon I listened to Gabrielle Bernstein's meditation on 'Seeing The World in Light', which she created for the final chapter of her 'Add More ~ing To Your Life' book.

Self care day 4, March 6th. Nothing hard about this one! I took the time and energy to self ex-foliate and wash my hair, which when you're in the final few weeks of being pregnant, can be totally exhausting. I did fell much better after doing so and very glad I pushed through the breathlessness and completed what I set out to do.

Today is self care day 5, March 7th and my goal today is to straighten my hair and paint my nails. I am also thinking about giving myself a facial and plucking my eyebrows, however if I don't get to that today then I am make it my self car promise for tomorrow. I think I will feel much prettier and self confident if I take this time to invest in myself, especially with how much my body has changed over the last 9 months.